2016 was a tough year. Perhaps it was even the hardest of my life. Endurance became the name of this game, and much wasn’t even something I could write about. Just… life.
The year started with the birth of Stellan, now nearing his first birthday in a few weeks. He’s been incredibly difficult, though recent months have been far better. He cried much of his first many months. Feeding him enzymes improved his outlook dramatically, though he continues to be incredibly needy. I haven’t slept through the night since he was born… Neither has he. Close a couple times, but no.
Our church lost its pastor this summer. For my husband, an elder in the church, this has been a huge change and call on his time as he attempts to fill in some of the gaps as we search for another pastor. The church has changed, lost many members, at least for a season. Friends have moved, and others just moved on. It’s been a season of growing, changing, and learning to rely more fully on Christ.
I’m homeschooling six kids this year. It’s been interesting. Chaotic. Stretching. The Refiner’s fire is a painful experience.
Puberty. Girls. Crazy. Hormones. Arrgh!!!!
I have no idea what the future holds. All I do know is that I serve a big God, I’ve been incredibly blessed thus far, and all I have to do is the next thing, then the next, then the next. Funny thing about the past – so many things I wouldn’t have chosen, had I been given the choice. And yet, hindsight what it is, I’m so incredibly thankful I didn’t have the choice. My greatest joys, my greatest blessings, have come from circumstances and trials I’d have avoided, and then I’d have missed it all.
Praise Him from Whom all blessings flow. Even when those blessings come through the Refiner’s fire.